Diamonds and Rust

I sometimes feel like I have lived two separate lives.  The one I know now and the one I grew up to.  The one I know now is filled with family and friends...not unlike the one I grew up to.  Now, some of the family is gone and so are some friends.

I had a wonderful childhood growing up.  I like to say that I was an only child with 4 siblings.  Reason being because there is a great age difference between me and my siblings.  I am 9 years younger than the second youngest and 16 years younger than the oldest.  I grew up in a house filled with teenagers and their friends.  Loving family all around me...on a street where 1/2 of the residents were relatives and the other 1/2 wished that they were and sometimes they even felt like it.

I was only 10 when my brother and my sister each got married in the same year.  This changed our house.  They no longer lived with us and my childhood changed.  I often feel very far removed from those days so very long ago...and sometimes it hurts to think about when we were all together.  Of course we had our share of differences, but I cannot seem to remember them anymore.

Today as I listened to my Pandora radio, I put on my Joan Baez station.  The only reason I know of her is because of my sister.  I was little and she was a teenager listening to Joan with her long straight hair and her bell bottoms on.  She would listen to the album in our brothers room because they had the stereo and I never paid so much attention to the music...so I thought until I am reminded with a song that now plays in my kitchen on this very day today...the song is "fountain of sorrow".   I facebook my sister to tell her about my feelings and memories but I write that the song is "mountain of sorrow" and we end up having such a laugh I know it is now a permanent joke in my life and it continues to bring me tremendous joy.

Thanks Joan.