"What have you done today, to make you feel proud?"....

I love that song from the Biggest Loser.  I use it sometimes as an anthem.  I am using it today...and every day forward.

As you have (or may not have) read in my last posting, I have been quite frustrated with the weight loss plan I was using.  I have since switched to the old weight loss plan I used a long time ago that did work for me and that I was happy on.

This has been building up for a few weeks now.  Over this past weekend, everything became clear.  I was so frustrated and ended up feeling like crap yesterday.  I was exhausted and needed a mental break day.  As I laid on the couch and watched the Harry Potter movies with Ava, I was feeling defenseless.  But, also I knew that when it came down to it, I have it in me to succeed.  Ava knew me as a strong mom who was fit and healthy.  I was active and she knew me as a runner.  Now, she sees my tummy, sees me laying on the couch and hears me saying "I'm so exhausted".  (ok, here comes the strong language in our house)  I HATE that person.  That person is not me and I know it.  I pull myself up, go to my biggest resource...a VERY good friend who was with me through it the first time and has always been there for me along the way.   (I will call her Trixie...the name is fun and it makes me smile) I text Trixie, then call her.  We talk, we get our anger out, we validate, we support, and we laugh.  It is just what I need.  Thanks Trixie.

I am revived again.  I start the day with a new purpose and a new plan.  I am not exhausted.  I am not lazy. I am not in my pj's.  :-)

I am ready.  I am strong.  I am on my way......I feel proud.